** Life is a Novel **

Saturday, August 30, 2008

自从妈妈得了这种病，我们的经济负担又增加了。（旁边就是一些妈妈的机器，和为期一个月的sugar solution袋。很多喔！房外还有十多个箱子）

1）妈妈的medisave用完了。

2）CPF也用完了。

3）两天前，爸爸的德士轮胎被锁上了，因为没钱交租金。

4）必须花上千元的洗肾费用，但幸好有NKF帮我们承担90%。

不仅如此，我还担心若有一天我嫁人了，那谁会照顾她？爸爸说他会，但他也会有老的一天啊，妈妈这可是一辈子的呀。。。爸爸的伟大牺牲是在令我感动。

我也得做出牺牲，其中一个旧式中秋节演出。我今天读了eugene和anna的email，里头有当晚的演出照片与video。可是我读了后并没有感到太兴奋或值得留恋的，因为我根本不在照片和video里头。我的上为期5天的洗肾课程，所以必须放弃演出。当我在做这决定时，我很矛盾，我很想参加这次的演出，但又不能不照顾妈妈。。。

我看到我3位好友的照片，偏偏却没有我；好难过，好可惜。

虽然说：“有福同享，有难同当”，但我是不会同当难的，我只会同当福。就像eugene在邮件里所说的：“Melody也希望我们的演出成功”。是，我很欣慰这次的演出没让观众失望，这也包括我在内。我看了video, 大家的都很有演技天分。

加油吧，T01！

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Friday, August 29, 2008

We were waiting for the movie " A month of hungry ghosts" to start at 9.25 in vivo, so we went for a walk. At the sky pool there, the scenery was quite beautiful as it was during the nite, so me and albert decided to take some photos, haha.

We took quite a few at the pool there, then some at the place near the cruise tat area. Luckily we brought wif us umbrella, cos it started to rain when we reached there a while. Lols, as we all know, gals normally like to take their own 自恋 photos de, so here i am, asking my bf to take more pics of me. HEHE!

Since it was raining tat nite, we got nothing to do but to wait. Suddenly, we heard a grp of pple, most likely church members, singing away. We both were influenced by them as well and started singing in the nite... carried away by the bright and beautiful surroundings.... I feel so blissed... But the stupid weather seemed to ruin the fun, as it kept getting heavier.

hai... 天下没有不散的宴席 ma... huf to end eventually and stroll to the cinema le...

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Prev i mentioned abt my stressful life as a daughter and elderst child, but there are times when my mum suddenly do stupid things. Reason is, she is no longer like a big adult now, she is like a small kid now, as she has stroke b4 this kidney failure, which led to be like this manner. Yst, albert pushed her on the wheelchair to delifrance (btw, she wans gd food everytime, making our life more jia lat.) to huf her breakfast, but guess wad, due to the crowd on the way, my mum's child-like behaviour came back again. She was saying" pi pi, pi pi, this is my mercedez!" OMG! imagine the expressions pple had, and they looked at us like we siao or wad. Like this is not enough, when we returned to the training rm, she said those again. LOLS!

Another thing happened today, during the dialysis. We tilted her head part of the bed down so as to let her sleep better, but we forgt to adjust her legs there the rest. so when we looked up, she was actually sliding off the chair, haha, so funny la, then somemore she duno tat she is sliding off wor. after tat, she went to sleep, and as she was feeling cold, she covered her whole head wif the blanket, a white blanket, and wif her whole body in level wif her head, she looked like a corpse in the 验尸房, wahaha! we just cant stop laughing! just imagine the scene...

Sadly, i got to stop here, as my story is too long to be a blog entry le. tmr will be real machine hands on, meaning i huf to do on my mother le. GD LUCK to myself ba!

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Its my 2nd experience at the dialysis centre, PD centre. Yst i just learned how to do manually for my mum dialysis, on a dummy, and today i must do it on my mum. i was quite nervous yst when the nurse kept asking me to show her the way to do it, as i was afraid i would mess up the steps. It was quite complicated:

There were 2 tubes, one wif one clamp and the other wif blue clamp;,a drainage bag, a bag of clean solution for flushing, alcohol wipes, iodine minicap, and my mum's transfer tube which is connected from her inner stomach to outside. I always mixed up wif the clamps order, as i kept forgetting which one to clamp first, then unscrew my mum's tube, then clamp back which, then unclamp which one again, then her tube so on and forth... Ahh!!!...

but tat is not the worst, there is still today; the machine way. Manual is to be used when the machine break down or wad, thus both are equally impt. This stupid machine has 6 tubes, and 6 different clamps, and nid programming b4 we can start the process. Wah sia, i really duno how to describe everything here... Its just, too much a burden for me, cos im not adult yet, im not the one 24 hrs sleeping wif her or wad, the main caretaker is actually my aunt; but she has to work, and she is too old, 50++ to memorise everything, including today's dressing of my mum's wound. Somemore, she gt depression. my mum cant afford to huf any infection, cos it will cost her life, tats y we nid to rmb when to wash hands b4 we touch the bags, b4 we touch the transfer tube and many more. n washing is not the normal type, must b the 7 steps washing.. hai, i still nid to teach my dad manual plus machine, which i dun even noe how many times they will huf errors, cos just one drop of the cap or even o slight contact wif the tube hole, the whole machine nust change.

Y is my life like tis???? i suddenly become the caretaker liao!!!!!

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Sunday, August 24, 2008

A very sudden thing today, Sentosa.

We were supposed to go to Imm actually, but duno why my bf wanted to go Vivo, and then sentosa. As the prev bus which we took to IMM had left, we hailed for a cab. Unfortunately, the whole day wad raining, thus we cant really go anywhere much, except for train ride to cineblast.

It was so annoying, i mean for the whole 2 months, when we dun wan to go sentosa, it did not rain; now when we wan to go, it rained the whole day. Hais.. Wat a 扫兴.. But, we did huf some pics taken though, although we did not brin any camera so huf to use hp instead and the results weren't very nice. Firstly, we went to Images of Singapore, as tat is where we huf to pass in order to reach cineblast today. When we reach there, we saw a stall tat provides photo taking wif the creature there. Initially, it was my bro and bf hu are to take tgt, but in the end, my bro dun dare, so my bf ended up taking alone. Haha! wat was funny was tat everyone crowding there gathered around to take him wif the creature, like some star or something... The creature was huge man. On the right is the pic which my bf took wif the python...=)

We went to cineblasts after tat, quite an excitement for my bro, not us really, lols. Not much to tok abt, cos today was raining the whole day... Hope i can find other time to visit there again, and hope by tat time i can huf more things to say!...

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Friday, August 22, 2008

( Tats me , on the left)

( Tats my bf on the right, prev pix)

Wanted to write this on the 17th, but i haven gt the pics yet. And i gt it now! So, 17th.. Hmm, it was my fren si ting's birthday, we had lunch at JP pizza hut. B4 we mit her, the few of us, including my bf, we went for gift hunting, lol. But one of my fren, stephanie was late, with her bf mingyu. We were supposed to mit up at 12, and si tng at 1, but steph n bf oly managed to reach arnd 1.30 lidat. 10 mins b4 she reached, we received cor from si ting tat she is leaving her hse...

OMG! Crashed!! me and fuzzy (fadzila) were hoping and urging steph to hurry.

After tat, when she reached, she just simply cant recognise us. She went in2 the shop which we told her we will be at, then walked out into the crowd, all the way... Haha! We stood on and waited... But she just kept walking further and further. ( we havent met for a yr u see..) So i decided to cor her. What a hilarious moment...!

We bought a friendship mug for si ting, and went for lunch. We ordered the party feast, and had some pictures taken... At the end, we suddenly rmb tat we haven bought any cake for her. Thus, steph and mingyu went out, claiming tat they wan go toilet, and went to shop for cake. When they came back, they secretly told the pizza hut manager to organise a surprise entrance for the cake.

We had so much fun, and soon, it was goin to be the end of the gathering. Its time...

When the manager passed by, my bf nodded to her, and then, suddenly, oly our area "blacked out". Followed by a "happy birthday" song. Everyone at there were looking at us. =p. Came the cake, a chocolate cake, lols, i mean, earlier on, steph say tat she wanted to go toilet, and so coincidental, this cake was a "chocolate cake". haha... si ting couldn't finish, so we asked mingyu to eat, since the day b4 was his birthday as well. but, he dint, cos his darling was there, oops!

Although we had a short time of 4 hours, we had great fun and memories, cos we nv mit for v long le.. It's all worth it! =)

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Bebe was in a hurry to come downstair.. Y? Cos he wans to fetch me home!! haha.

Dear dear wanted to let him wear a shirt as the weather today was quite cold, and he brought wif him bebe's toy-- a baby donkey stuff toy. It was meant to be his hugging bear, but instead of hugging, he chewed on it often. So in order to make the bonding btwn bebe and don don closer, dear dear tightened the toy on bebe's back, using his strap. =) cute he looked wor! Everyone walked by was smiling and looking at him, especially the kids, they would ask,"how come the doggy got toy?","is it a girl dog?","so cute! the dog got toy!" and stuff like that. Haha. Btw, bebe is a male ok?... This is how he looked like above. Not very clear though, but can clearly see the toy on his back, wif the hoodie he is wearing over his ears. =p

"Hope never stops,unless u stop hoping."